wow! it has been a long time! like a really long time! i think i lost all of my followerbase after i disappeared for 2 or so years. i don't blame anybody, really. this is basically like a student disappearing for years on end and being found alive and all the guy talks about is his surprisingly mundane life since his disappearance. but way less extreme i'd imagine.

my life has been... okay? mediocre, really. right now i'm in highschool and taking AP classes, which is all i can say honestly. i used to take dual as well, but a lot of dual classes now use honorlock and it's terrible. it's genuinely spyware. kind of sad that all i can say for myself is that i'm an "academic weapon" LOL. i'm also getting my license soon which is cool.

i sort of want to come back to this website, because i feel like this is a little corner i can hide in. nobody i know personally thinks i use this site anymore, which is both sad and kind of... freeing? it's not like i'm being censored with my friends or anything, but i like having a space i can just crawl back to by myself. also, this site hasn't been hit with the garbage mount that twitter/insta/etc have. it feels a lot like the old internet that people talk about, which was user-oriented and felt like a community. which is the entire point of this website and why it hasn't really changed much, which is good! i've become a way more withdrawn and socially awkward person, and the reason i never used this site much to begin with was because i was way too shy and anxious to interact with anyone outside of my own art posts. i still am that way, even more so (probably), but i hope one day i can actually go to this website and maybe have a conversation on forums or something. cause i know i can build connections and learn how to be more authentically myself (something i struggle with greatly) with that. maybe one day, probably not now or tomorrow but sometime in the future, when i find social situations less daunting.

for anyone who bothered to read, thanks! hopefully one day i can get the true hang of this website and meet cool people. but for now i'll resort to just posting art and maybe a blog post every Long While. i don't make much art nowadays, so i guess i'll stay inactive until i draw more again.